Letting summer begin...

So here I am, on another day amongst another warm and sunny summer here in Pullman. For us Washington State University students, school ends (with the exception of summer session), right after the first week of May and so summer arrives somewhat comfortably early for us. Sometimes, we don't really notice it but summer hits us very fast like the way someone jumps in front of us from a bush and surprises us. We get caught off-guard a little.

For me, I always look forward to summer whether or not I'm living in the metropolitan hustle and bustle of Seattle or simply here in the laid-back calm of the rolling hills of Pullman. Either way, my mind becomes excited for anticipations and the random moments that are yet to come. At the same time, my mind also tends to draw back memories of past summers as if it wants me to not ever forget them and also at the same time, gently remind me of what I once was, what I once had,...and what I once felt and where I yearned to be. I guess right now what I'm trying to convey is that I'm feeling immensely nostalgic for last summer.


And I guess it's quite normal because certain individuals, certain places and certain moments that existed in the past; things that meant so much to you, never seem to go away. They live deep inside you and you harbor them because it's hard to let go of them when they've already became a part of you and grew inside you. And you don't want to let go of them because they remind you of how happy you were once. The memories and the emotions attached to them never fails to find you, especially on those lonely summer days when you just simply lay there on the grass and as the wind gently sweeps over your face, you close your eyes and the silent images starts to drift slowly inside you and the emotions begin to flood through your body.

Right now, I'm thinking of last summer...

...we didn't have much...but we had each other. things didn't go right sometimes, but there would always be days where everything seemed perfect and I felt like I was in a dream and didn't want to wake up...

...and some of those days, were truly some of the best days of my life.

As summer is beginning, I realized that I really do miss someone right now that isn't here with me. I can honestly say that this person is not right beside me as I lay here on the this grassy hill, underneath this summer sky, but I can still feel this person, shine inside me.




...I just wish.