Sunday, December 30, 2007

11:56pm...December 30th...Letting go...

If you're one of my roommates or one of the few who know me well, you'd definitely know that I have trouble sleeping most nights. What ends up happening is that I'll get in bed and just lay there in the bleak & calm darkness staring my mind away and think of something that's been bothering me, or even something that I should have done, or said. One thought leads to another, and pretty soon I find myself wide awake, at 3am in the morning, trying to solve all my problems.

During summer, when I was at that time living in Seattle, I came up with this idea where I would write down thoughts that were running through my head onto a notebook that I bought especially for this purpose.

I'm trying to write something in it each day, ideally before I go to bed. That way, hopefully, I'll be able to go to sleep knowing that I've done something about it, or that I can figure it out the following day.

My notebook entry for tonight is reflecting some remnants of my thoughts from the past three weeks and a song... Damien Rice's "The Blower's Daughter" . Listen...



I hate and love this song at the same time. I hate it because I find myself listening to it too often. I love it because it's so melancholic, so sad, but so immensely beautiful.

I've been listening to it quite a lot lately...

Coincidently, I also found out my friend Woojae, who is currently going through the same emotional state as me for the past few weeks, is listening to it non-stop...

The song is about unrequited love. It's tragically beautiful. The song reveals a guy who loves her to death, but any feelings she may have had for him are long gone, as she loathes him, and now he has to move on and find someone new...

...but he just can't move on, not yet...maybe someday, and until then he won't ever stop thinking about her...

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

u have very beautiful handwriting btw.

d y l a n t o u c h said...

anonymous,
thanks for diggin' my handwriting. i get that a lot.

KorBua said...

totally agree with ms/mr anonymous... :) write me a postcard!!! nvm... im just crazy. i hav this tiny problem falling asleep too. what bad for me is that i end up looking like a moody panda. hahaha. :) i meditate when i can't sleep... as suggested by a gud friend. :) life's too short to be sad, dylan. :) smile.

Vattey said...

Hi,your hand writing is very nice! Anyway, I think I understand how you feel while you said you love and hate the song at the same time :)

d y l a n t o u c h said...

korbua:
hey~ i wouldnt mind sendin' ya a postcard. that be fun, yeah? ...and then u could do the same to me as well. i think in this day in age, we tend to correspond with emails and text messages that we forget how beautiful and sentimental a written letter can be. thanks for the comment though korbua! :)

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vattey:
thanks! i'm glad u could understand.